uncried tears....unspoken words: "Where's my script?"

You ever feel like you where living in a movie and you were the only one without the script? Well thats me right now, the things happening around me seem straight off the screen. This movie is obviously a romance chick flick, everyone around me seem to be blissfully inlove and it all happened in an instant. And well.....I have noone. I didn't really feel the need or want for anyone untill now. All the people around them must have a director coaching them in what to do and say to make the magic work, but where is mine. Everywhere I go I see hand holding, kissing , the token "I love you" being spoken with perfect timing and emotion. And all I have is nerves and insecurity. I mean I think I want someone to past the time with, to share a laugh with, or even something as cliche as walk along the beach and enjoy a sunset or two. But I'm for sure that I am not ready for a "BOYFRIEND". I guess I kinda feel like an extra in life. Maybe just once I would want to be the leading lady or even her sidekick. haha! I have some ideas for a leading man but you will just have to wit for that information.